a raven....

In the midst of all the current chaos in my life ,I must admit that having a dream in which I could fly was most welcomed. I felt so free and happy. Free falling it seemed into what ever might come.
Things have been so horrible as of late with only broken pieces of happiness left to remind me of  how wonderful things were. Or perhaps how passive and forgiving I used to be. Yup that dream was wonderful. I need more like it.

Rain....

It's raining ! Finally!  I love the smell and how all the colors become darker. The sound of thunder is amazing as well. It would rain right now that things are so bad. Reminding me of the good times and now sorrow I desperately try to avoid. But it is what it is and I'll live as will everyone else. Until then I'll settle for the lovely rain to wash it all away.

Rain , rain stay today, dont leave me for another day....

Of dreams and dying, on the other side...................

The other night I had a dream in which my grandmother passed away. She was sick in the dream,stricken by some strange illness which would contort her body with such horrible force that it would literally break her bones and cause her limbs especially her left leg to just hang and move around.The strange part was that while she did complain of the pain she never really expressed any. He face was always calm and at times while her body collapsed she would be smiling at me. It was as if she was telling me that it was okay and would pass soon. My family had nothing at all to say. The acted as if it was just another normal part of life ,often giving me grief for my saddened state. The day she finally passed away we were in a small kitchen and she had a crutch under her left arm. I was helping her get some things to prepare a meal when suddenly I heard the crutch hit the floor. When I turned around she had fallen against a silver table in the middle of the room.  Her left leg had broken and completely turned all the way around leaving her foot near her head.She looked paralyzed as she laid on the floor looking at me with a smile on her face. Sun light from an above window made her face glow as everything around us seemed to dim into darkness. Now all I could see was her body and  the table in the center of the room. As she smiled and spoke softly to me she came to an abrupt stop just as I was reaching for her. Her eyes seemed startled for a split second and then returned to a peaceful glance. And suddenly as I tried to hold her , I felt her body move as if it was being tugged away from me. I sat back in shock as her right leg was now under the table and was followed by a second rapid tug that pulled her completely under the table and into the dark.
I called out and everything just went black. Next thing I remember is leaving her funeral being so consumed with sorrow and guilt at the fact that I did nothing to save her. That I still didn't understand what had happened to her. My family frowned on me for questioning things and even for feeling so sad. It was strange. I woke up soon after.  Its safe to say I checked on her immediately . There she was still smiling at me. Lets hope her smile remains for years to come.
Life is so short. Its seems so unfair. Why must we waste it on complex notions that bring no positive light into our lives? Is it possible to miss those we have yet to lose? I think so. Perhaps its just the thought of losing them that reminds us how fragile it all is, and how inevitable death remains.

Jack of the dead ....

Paper mache Jack of the dead 

Inspired by Jack Skellington of Nightmare before Christmas and Dia De los Muertos

10 inches tall 

1 food wide  from elbow to elbow

Mounted on a wooden base

$20

I also take pay pal :)

Message me if you are interested or have any questions malediction13@yahoo.com

Paper mache skeleton coffin wall plaque....

Paper mache Skeleton/ coffin wall plaque

2 feet 3 inches tall 

1 foot 4 inches

Mounted on a wooden frame.

$30 

I also take pay pal :)

Message me if you are interested or have any questions

Malediction13@yahoo.com

1313 TONIGHT....

TONIGHT!! THIRSTY CAMEL BAR AND LOUNGE
calling all ghouls and bats...
It's 1313 time !
Bring out your dead as we celebrate a night of Art / Goth/ Deathrock/ Post Punk and more!
No cover.
San Antonio, Tx.

Sleep now yesssssss..... Maybe not..

I'm so very tired. I had no idea my son was going to be dropped off so early so I decided to stay up past 4 am working on art for the up coming show this weekend. Jumping from project to project I tend to lose track of time , something I'm kicking myself for now!

Here are some coffin wall plaques I hope to finish by today. If i don't pass out first.

Look what the dog dug up......

Some people are so incapable of dealing with the idea of being lonely that they will go to great lengths to  bring back the dead just to keep them company. 

Bat to baby bat...

 At the art show I had some help from my son Gavin. He had a blast djing with me and taking in the art at his first art show. Fun times ;)

Cult of Shock..........

 

I'll be Djing at this wonderful Photography Exhibition today in San Antonio

christ vs. warhol......

Great band. If you haven't heard them check them out.....
Find the Album here.... 




Here is some info taken from Last FM. Christ vs. Warhol on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/christvswarhol Christ vs. Warhol on myspace http://www.myspace.com/christvswarholmusic




BIOGRAPHY: All is not well in Los Angeles: beyond the perfectly manicured lawns and pre-fab buildings, between the corporate media hype and pharmaceutical ads, behind the plastic surgery and spray-on tans, a sense of unrest grows, festering just beneath the surface, threatening to tip the delicate balance of artifice and apathy off it’s axis and send the entire facade crashing into a well-deserved oblivion. It is this climate that birthed Christ vs. Warhol — art school sedition with guitars instead of guns. Fronted by agitprop siren eveghost (ex-Scarlet’s Remains and Purnama), Christ vs. Warhol is colored by the frenetic, swirling guitars of Steven James (ex-All Gone Dead and Scarlet’s Remains/currently of The Deadfly Ensemble and Faith And The Muse), driven by the eclectic, angular basslines of Marzia Rangel (ex-Kastle Greyskull and Scarlet’s Remains/currently of The Deadfly Ensemble and Faith And The Muse), and held in place by the thundering drums of Geoff Bruce (ex-Sunshine Blind and Faith And The Muse/currently of Anima Mundi). Dissent, the band’s 2010 debut album, blends post-punk sensibilities with anarchic fervor, with lyrics ranging from the fiercely political to the delicately personal, all delivered with Christ vs. Warhol’s trademark hooks and vicious energy.

1313 August 17.....

Next 1313 falls on August 17

Can't wait!

Bats goddamn bats!

Items waiting to be sold

Here kitty kitty...

I came across this book today! I should have purchases it. Maybe then I'd understand why my fat ass cat shits so much!

Move from light.....

So far this blog of mine has fallen by the way side. I make no excuses as It basicly boils down to me being a lazy bitch and nothing else. Last week was pretty shity with the exception of having my baby bats:) I am quickly losing my motivation .

I am fully aware that things will not always be in my control but I can't seem to shke this feeling that I am throwing away more than I should. Not just with limited life time but everything. Again I've found myself slipping into a hard depression .I however refuse to let myself fall too far down this pit. 

Bunny Nubbins take 2?.....

Working on the top.

Dead Alive.....(aka brain dead)

The other night I introduced my daughter  to a great fun,gory ,film I love called Dead Alive ,aka Brain Dead.
If your a fan of Evil Dead type films from the 80's You will love this 90's release.Here is a description I found on Amazon.com. ...
If you're not a connoisseur of graphic horror and gruesome gore, you'd better steer clear of this wicked 1992 horror-comedy from the demented mind and delirious camera of New Zealand-born writer-director Peter Jackson. However, if nonstop mayhem and extreme violence are your idea of great entertainment, you're sure to appreciate Jackson's gleefully inventive approach to a story that can judiciously be described as sick, twisted, and totally outrageous. The movie's central character is a poor schmuck named Lionel who's practically enslaved to his domineering mother. But when ol' Mum gets bitten by a rare and poisonous rat monkey from Skull Island and is turned into a flesh-eating zombie, Lionel has the unfortunate task of keeping Mama happy while fending off all the other zombies that result from her voracious feeding frenzies. If you've read this far, you'll either be crying out for censorship or eagerly awaiting your first viewing (or second, or third...) of this wildly clever and audaciously uninhibited movie. And while director Jackson would later achieve critical success with his fact-based drama Heavenly Creatures, his talent is readily evident in this earlier effort. If you find this kind of thing even remotely appealing, consider Dead Alive a must-see movie. --Jeff Shannon
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here is the trailer if you haven't seen it already.










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Buy Dead Alive here......



Here are some Images from the film ....

 

 

Pumpkin head baby......

Another pumpkin head baby up for sale! $15

Propaganda......

 

I'll be djing here in San Antonio at Wax for my Underground 80's Night called Propaganda!

 

Blackout in the Bat House episode 3 .....

 New Episode of Blackout in the Bat House is up !
Click here to listen to it :)
http://therequiem.net/podcast-episodes/blackout-in-the-bat-house-ep-3/

Bunny Nubbins take 2......

.....social d ?......

Almost done with this piece. Should be picked up this week. 

I tend to start too many projects which take my focus away from finishing things. 

2 baby bats....

My son Gavin and daughter Lilith :) 

It seems so unfair how fast they grow.

Only one missing is their brother Kaleb.

Bunny nubbins take one?

Bunny nubbins 

A work in progress:)

Boats on the flood land......

Today it was nice and rainy! My girlfriend and our son Gavin started playing in the rain like if we were all kids again. Ok Gavin is 3 but still;). Natalie and I often talk about silly simple things we did as kids. Small stuff that made for such wonderful memories. Things that now as adults we see as fun but not too smart. For example when we were little we would run around in puddles and slightly flooded streets . Sure it still sounds fun to do but the first thing that jumps into our minds now as adults is how dirty that water running down the street is. 

Its sad feeling like you have lost most of the wonder and passion for simplicity that the world offers us.  We all have it burried deep in us. And at times it still comes out. Maybe its a somg or the chill of winter that brings back memories and warm smiles or maybe its a rainy day with flooded streets! Today was that day for us and I must say it was wonderful sharing that with our son and each other. 

Like two fools lost in a flooded street on a rainy day we had a blast playing with Gavin up and down the street. I tied some rope to one of his toy boats and let him set sail:) He was so happy and the smile on his face was just amazing!

Natalie captured this photo of him walking down the street with his boat . 

1313 July 13.....

This Saturday I will be Djing and Selling my art at my monthly Deathrock /Postpunk/Goth night 1313.
Its always a spooky good time. If your in the area of San Antonio Tx. I hope you can make it.

 

Poppies Screen the Light......

Great French Deathrock band called Sleeping Children




Find their Album here............

Enjoy

Mini pumpkin bats....

Mini pumpkin bats. $5 each

 

Skeleton ghoulie.....

Skeleton ghoulie.  Paper mache on wooden base $25

Behind the mask.....,

Here's a photo of me wearing one of my masks at an art show.

Something new.....

Started something new.  Here is a sneak peak art it. 

Back again.....

Finally got this piece back from the store. Need to fix it up and sell it

Burn baby burn......

Today I helped my sister cut her lawn. Not a big deal except for the fact that it is 106 outside! Ahhh The hellish Texas weather is too much.  It's more than safe to say that bats and the sun don't mix as I felt myself  ready to explode into flames. 

When I work out in the heat I always come in looking like a rock lobster .... No fun!  Perhaps I should invest in one of those umbrella hats and maybe add some bats hanging from it:) Now that would be great!  I'd be able to go to the beach then. Time to stock up on sun block spf 1000!

Mooooo

My 3 year old just asked me to give him chocolate milk because he wants to turn into a cow:) kids gotta love them!

Kommunity Fk live in San Antonio...

Kommunity Fk / Texylvania
 live in San Antonio,Tx.
 July 19 at  Korova

Woman with cat mask......

I came across this on Tumblr not too long ago. I fell in love with the image.

Brassaï, Untitled (Woman with cat mask), Paris, 1930s

warm bodies...

Some thing  I often find myself asking is whether or not I've managed to take in all possibilities . After all I would hate to make a judgement call based on poor evaluation. Lending little help to emotional influence and basing a conclusion or solution founded in logic makes more sense to me. Do I get it right ever? Sometime... And what of other times? What about them :p
Who am I kidding....While I do my best to follow logic I am only human and run on emotion at times and with the best of them, make shit judgement calls . Now, this all sounds rather dramatic ( and perhaps it is) for the point at hand , but none the less I felt the need to mention my often failed view on decision making for this silly post.
The movie this time is Warm Bodies. A recent zombie flick which I found absolutely idiotic...at least judging by the trailers. The absurd idea that a walking corpse could fall in love with a living person made it pretty simple I thought. First thing that came to mind after watching the trailer was, " Wow, its a trendy hip zombie flick for the masses " . Easy to consume. Easier to forget in my book. Bleh, how completely bland and void of substance I thought.
BUT
I ended up watching it the other day out of compete boredom and I must say I really liked it. It was campy and trendy yes,but somehow managed to capture some teenage lost love / beauty in simplicity vibe that always pulls at my heart strings. Obviously don't go into this expecting a horror flick but rather a cute love saves all type of thing. Horrible review I know. so sue me.

If you get a chance, check it out for yourself.

Blackout in the Bat House.....

New episode of BlackOut in the Bat House
is up... here's a link to my streaming Deathrock/ Post Punk/ Goth show.
http://therequiem.net/podcast-episodes/blackout-in-the-bat-house-ep-2/

Dead end city.....

Its one of those days where things are just stacking against me or so it seems. I met my girlfriend at work to pick up our son and had planned on dropping off an application but thue car i am using wouldn't . After I got the battery jumped I  was so worried that it would happen again that I decided not to turn it off again until we made it home . I'm pretty upset that I didn't get to drop my application and even more frustrated at not having my own car. I've been borrowing my mothers car since she had to use mine and was rear ended  leaving my car totaled:/ 

I also woke up today and my eye was slightly swollen and in pain. Perhaps its a stye? What ever it is its painful! I was planning on getting an eye exame for new contacts tommorrow but I guess thats out the window now until I get over this eye issue. Hopefully it will clear up before tomorrow when  I have to dj as well as Saturdays art show. 

Either way I refuse to let this keep me down. I need to focus the negative into positive energy , figure things out, eat some feel good food, hug a tree and what not;) well with my luck the tree will be cover in ants unseen by me. Or worse have a bees nest on it. Bleh.... What's a bat to do?

Dead spider.....

I am making another one of my dead spiders for this Saturdays art show:) I'll update this post as I work on it some more.

So far I have made its body and head. Now I need to paper mache the legs and allow them to dry before attaching them.

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Next its time to add the legs

Bitter again...

Seriously wish winter was here. I'd kill to walk out the door And feel the bitter cold on my face. That would be heaven! Not this constant roller coaster of disappointment. Sometimes I don't feel like I'm moving forward. No matter how hard I try. Maybe it's time to up my dose of Zoloft. Fucking bleh...

1313 July 13....

Here is the flyer for tge next 1313 happening July 13 at the Thirsty Camel here in San Antonio, TX.

circles and circles and circles again....

One thing I've never liked doing is repeating myself over and over again. I don't mind once or twice but if I find myself going over the same thing like ten times for absolutely no reason then I get seriously annoyed.
For example.....
If someone asks, where are you? And I answered getting gas at the gas station before I go home. Then I'm asked why did I go to that gas station....and I reply, because it was on the way home and I'm instantly met with, no its not (when it damn well is) and why did you stop there? Or why didn't you go to this gas station...followed by why did you go there again and why not here? At that point I just throw my hands up and say what the fuck does it matter? I'm getting gas because I need it . Who gives a fuck which gas station I went to. I'm getting gas not buying a house or selling my soul. I will never get it. Why go in circles? why go on and on? More importantly why act like you don't get it when I get mad at you? Seriously, find something better to over analyze...something that makes no sense at all, for example the reason you feel you need to question me over and over.
Fucking blah...rant over.

replicas.....

Since I was young I was obsessed  with making duplicates of things I liked. I always wanted to learn how to make molds and cast tons of skulls and more. I finally figured out how to do it years ago but still struggle with it. Like all of my art its been a long ass work in progress. I admit I fail at applying myself more when it comes to my art, my passion. But in recent months I've begun to experiment more and more with all sorts of things . Creating not only duplicates but modifying and putting my own twist on things. I suppose I am a pack rat but most of the things I collect become parts in my on going creative process.
My family went through several ups and downs while I was growing up. We have been dirt poor and then well off. Not rich but from our previous stand point it was pretty damn good. Then we hit rock bottom and up and down again, never fully climbing back up the ladder of stability. Early on I was extremely careful when it came to wasting supplies when it came to making things. Eventually I realized by being overly cautious I ended up doing very little. Now I tend to get more done .
I realized awhile back that time is just ticking away and I have yet to reach the place I want to be as far as being an artist goes. I would have never created my dear friends Lucy Goat or Doloris Bones.
I need to add more art on this blog. soon...very soon.

Kommunity FK - We Will Not Fall

Kommunity FK - We Will Not Fall






We shall not fall can be found on this compilation....
 

Sinister

Finally got around to seeing the film Sinister. I had heard rave reviews but while I didn't the movie I did find it a bit predictable and lacking. It suffered from some typical trendy effects and recycled elements but hey whats original now a days right? It was good and would recommend it. However it is not one of my favorites.
Here is a description I pulled from amazon.com

Ten years ago, true crime writer Ellison Oswald made his reputation with a best-selling account of a notorious murder. Now, desperate to replicate success of his first book, he moves his family into a home where the previous occupants were brutally executed and a child disappeared, hoping to find inspiration in the crime scene. In the home, Ellison discovers a cache of terrifying home movies, unwittingly opening the door into a nightmarish mystery.

Buy it here. 


Here are some stills from the film.

 

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Find the soundtrack here.