Of dreams and dying, on the other side...................

The other night I had a dream in which my grandmother passed away. She was sick in the dream,stricken by some strange illness which would contort her body with such horrible force that it would literally break her bones and cause her limbs especially her left leg to just hang and move around.The strange part was that while she did complain of the pain she never really expressed any. He face was always calm and at times while her body collapsed she would be smiling at me. It was as if she was telling me that it was okay and would pass soon. My family had nothing at all to say. The acted as if it was just another normal part of life ,often giving me grief for my saddened state. The day she finally passed away we were in a small kitchen and she had a crutch under her left arm. I was helping her get some things to prepare a meal when suddenly I heard the crutch hit the floor. When I turned around she had fallen against a silver table in the middle of the room.  Her left leg had broken and completely turned all the way around leaving her foot near her head.She looked paralyzed as she laid on the floor looking at me with a smile on her face. Sun light from an above window made her face glow as everything around us seemed to dim into darkness. Now all I could see was her body and  the table in the center of the room. As she smiled and spoke softly to me she came to an abrupt stop just as I was reaching for her. Her eyes seemed startled for a split second and then returned to a peaceful glance. And suddenly as I tried to hold her , I felt her body move as if it was being tugged away from me. I sat back in shock as her right leg was now under the table and was followed by a second rapid tug that pulled her completely under the table and into the dark.
I called out and everything just went black. Next thing I remember is leaving her funeral being so consumed with sorrow and guilt at the fact that I did nothing to save her. That I still didn't understand what had happened to her. My family frowned on me for questioning things and even for feeling so sad. It was strange. I woke up soon after.  Its safe to say I checked on her immediately . There she was still smiling at me. Lets hope her smile remains for years to come.
Life is so short. Its seems so unfair. Why must we waste it on complex notions that bring no positive light into our lives? Is it possible to miss those we have yet to lose? I think so. Perhaps its just the thought of losing them that reminds us how fragile it all is, and how inevitable death remains.

Jack of the dead ....

Paper mache Jack of the dead 

Inspired by Jack Skellington of Nightmare before Christmas and Dia De los Muertos

10 inches tall 

1 food wide  from elbow to elbow

Mounted on a wooden base

$20

I also take pay pal :)

Message me if you are interested or have any questions malediction13@yahoo.com

Paper mache skeleton coffin wall plaque....

Paper mache Skeleton/ coffin wall plaque

2 feet 3 inches tall 

1 foot 4 inches

Mounted on a wooden frame.

$30 

I also take pay pal :)

Message me if you are interested or have any questions

Malediction13@yahoo.com

1313 TONIGHT....

TONIGHT!! THIRSTY CAMEL BAR AND LOUNGE
calling all ghouls and bats...
It's 1313 time !
Bring out your dead as we celebrate a night of Art / Goth/ Deathrock/ Post Punk and more!
No cover.
San Antonio, Tx.

Sleep now yesssssss..... Maybe not..

I'm so very tired. I had no idea my son was going to be dropped off so early so I decided to stay up past 4 am working on art for the up coming show this weekend. Jumping from project to project I tend to lose track of time , something I'm kicking myself for now!

Here are some coffin wall plaques I hope to finish by today. If i don't pass out first.

Look what the dog dug up......

Some people are so incapable of dealing with the idea of being lonely that they will go to great lengths to  bring back the dead just to keep them company. 

Bat to baby bat...

 At the art show I had some help from my son Gavin. He had a blast djing with me and taking in the art at his first art show. Fun times ;)

Cult of Shock..........

 

I'll be Djing at this wonderful Photography Exhibition today in San Antonio

christ vs. warhol......

Great band. If you haven't heard them check them out.....
Find the Album here.... 




Here is some info taken from Last FM. Christ vs. Warhol on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/christvswarhol Christ vs. Warhol on myspace http://www.myspace.com/christvswarholmusic




BIOGRAPHY: All is not well in Los Angeles: beyond the perfectly manicured lawns and pre-fab buildings, between the corporate media hype and pharmaceutical ads, behind the plastic surgery and spray-on tans, a sense of unrest grows, festering just beneath the surface, threatening to tip the delicate balance of artifice and apathy off it’s axis and send the entire facade crashing into a well-deserved oblivion. It is this climate that birthed Christ vs. Warhol — art school sedition with guitars instead of guns. Fronted by agitprop siren eveghost (ex-Scarlet’s Remains and Purnama), Christ vs. Warhol is colored by the frenetic, swirling guitars of Steven James (ex-All Gone Dead and Scarlet’s Remains/currently of The Deadfly Ensemble and Faith And The Muse), driven by the eclectic, angular basslines of Marzia Rangel (ex-Kastle Greyskull and Scarlet’s Remains/currently of The Deadfly Ensemble and Faith And The Muse), and held in place by the thundering drums of Geoff Bruce (ex-Sunshine Blind and Faith And The Muse/currently of Anima Mundi). Dissent, the band’s 2010 debut album, blends post-punk sensibilities with anarchic fervor, with lyrics ranging from the fiercely political to the delicately personal, all delivered with Christ vs. Warhol’s trademark hooks and vicious energy.

1313 August 17.....

Next 1313 falls on August 17

Can't wait!

Bats goddamn bats!

Items waiting to be sold

Here kitty kitty...

I came across this book today! I should have purchases it. Maybe then I'd understand why my fat ass cat shits so much!

Move from light.....

So far this blog of mine has fallen by the way side. I make no excuses as It basicly boils down to me being a lazy bitch and nothing else. Last week was pretty shity with the exception of having my baby bats:) I am quickly losing my motivation .

I am fully aware that things will not always be in my control but I can't seem to shke this feeling that I am throwing away more than I should. Not just with limited life time but everything. Again I've found myself slipping into a hard depression .I however refuse to let myself fall too far down this pit. 

Bunny Nubbins take 2?.....

Working on the top.